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Monday, September 11, 2006

looks like we are making it

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she sits quietly, shyly, with her classmates along the low wall that runs the perimeter of the kindergarten yard. she faces forward. not looking back at us. we wait on the other side for the teacher to tell them to stand, then head off to their classroom. inevitably, as we wait, little fingers creep through the fence to meet even littler fingers. they press into each other. sending a silent message between sisters. it will all be ok.

we are still transitioning. but definitely feeling that it will all be ok.

i can't help but think of what we were doing five years ago today. how shocked, horrified, saddened, scared we were. i was 8 months pregnant and so terrified by the thought of the world we were now part of. how could i bring a new baby into this? the big bug arrived four days later. three and a bit weeks early. we were so unprepared for her. and so so ready for her. again. it will all be ok. it is.

14 comments:

Ali said...

What a beautiful moment you've captured.

pixiegenne said...

great picture - and sentiment

Mama Urchin said...

what a sweet picture. i love seeing my two in loving moments, i'm sure this pulled your heartstrings

Alicia A. said...

It sure pulled at mine. So incredibly sweet. They are lucky to have each other.

Hope the adjustment is going well. I've been thinking of you girls.

amy h said...

That's such a sweet picture. Sisters are great -- I love mine!

this single spark said...

Feeling a little teary. So glad things are going well for you, and that everyone is adjusting.

Think I'll go put my fingers over my baby sister's tomorrow when she goes for yet another procedure to try and figure out why she is in so much pain, why she can't get pregnant and whether the two things are connected.

The bugs are so lucky to have each other.

Amy said...

ACK! That picture -- I've got chills.

Sarah said...

What a sweet, affirming moment between two small people. I was the mother of a week old baby five years ago today. I keenly remember swimming in the sea of "what have I done?" I still wonder that sometimes but mostly the uncertainty is overshadowed by hope. Your little bugs embody that hope so beatifully in that picture.

stephanie said...

so sweet.

molly said...

what an amazing picture and beautiful words. lovely.

blair said...

Really lovely Tracy. I have been thinking about this day five years ago and me at home with very small children too.

That photo is just priceless.

Tracy said...

thanks everyone. i am constantly amazed by the strength i receive through my kids. they are my best reason for all i do...

and yes, heartstrings were pulled - and quiet tears shed!

Alicia P. said...

That just made me cry.

Pam said...

Wow! Great picture. That picture will mean a lot far into the future when those little hands are old and freckled!!!!! Trust me, I'm there, and that picture says a lot!